When Venus Smiles

When Venus smiles my soul becomes liquid

flowing into all surrounding me.

Time disintegrating

Luxury divine

No ticking clock

No angry sun

No jealous moon.

Her eyes mystify

filling my head with words

which swiftly float away.

Silken Vines

I remember when 

my hair fell , curtain like 

around my body.

caressing my naked flesh

with its silky weight .

I used to hide 

beneath silken darkness.

My breathing was slow and quiet

as I slept in the safety

of its warmth.

Now I am bare as the trees in Winter 

beautiful still,now stronger and less soft

The whiteness of my flesh 

has only clothing as its cover.

My neck,exposed

so long and pale.

Shoulders awaiting my lover's kiss

where once I was touched

 by silken vines.

Pink Floyd - Echoes ( KeseK Dub step remix )

Pink Floyd - Echoes ( KeseK Dub step remix )

Memories

In these times I know my mind,

it is not like before.

In those days of forgetfulness and rage

I used to sit in quiet moments

tears rolling down my face

for the woman I could be, but was not.

Somewhere in my heart I know I was only waiting

for someone to take my hand, releasing me from those fears.

Now I look back on those days, some sorrow remains.

Mostly there is joy for the woman I have become,

and I am still growing.

Now those memories matter only in passing,

for they help me to see how far I have come

from memories.

Sorrow and Hope

Sometimes I feel like I'm sinking down,

the world around me too much to bear.

My burden is heavy

and my sorrows many.

That's  when I remember

how much you care.

When I had resigned

and felt so abused,

I couldn't think clearly.

I was confused.

You came into my life

to show me the way.

Now I grow stronger

every day.

Sphinx

Isn't she lovely

A sphinx in disguise

looking at you

with those maddening eyes.

She'll suck you like sugar

from inside the cane.

Hunger is her middle name.

You'll burn like fire.

She's cold as ice.

You won't be walking her way twice.

You had better listen to my advice.

You should be wise,

don't look in her eyes.

She's a sphinx lady

She's a sphinx lady

Oh yeah.

Hiding

In the eyes of the many

to the arms of the few

the hearts of the masses

mean nothing to you.

They cry out for shelter

in your loving arms.

To you they mean nothing

as you hide from possible harm.

Nothingness

I do not feel this.

I do not feel your eyes upon me.

As your hands go walking ,

I do not feel this.

I am empty.

When you kiss me

my mouth, the automaton kisses you back

with no sympathy.

I have no answers

I have no answers for your questioning eyes.

My eyes ,reflecting yours,

are empty pools,

unfathomable and deep.

Like blackest water they embrace you

within the nothing

I have become.

I do not feel this.

I do not feel your eyes upon me.

As your body moves in closer

I do not feel this

I am empty.

Beginning

I have been here an eternity ,

gazing longingly into the depths  ,

looking down upon layers

of color,light,and sound.

Rising above the atmosphere ,

notes are haunting me,piercing my soul

with darts of unreasoning song.

Before there was thought

there was emptiness-

formless density

waiting upon a proper vessel to carry me down

through layer upon layer of sights,sounds,and feelings. The unreasoning begins.

Sorrow

Sorrow

deep and dark as a cavernous pool.

Life is an endless chain of events

all leading up to this moment.

Where do I get off at?

Where does the world end and I begin?

When I am touched I want to feel

connecting lines,

electricity for the masses.

I give them what they need.

Where am I in all of this?

Am I not more than

this body,

this mind,

this soul ?

Granted clear vision I have traveled

these electric highways,

feeling the heart beat of the universe,

centered around a moment.

Creation,

and then flight,

ending in darkness and separation.

Remembering the fall.

I awake, wingless and tired,

another day closer to destiny.

Home

Home. Warm blankets piled up to my chin.

Rain beats upon the windows

like a steady drum.

The smell of coffee promises warmth and comfort

at the beginning of the day.

Sliding out of bed I arch my back

in a catlike gesture

Hitting the cold floor, my feet curl up in protest.

Until sheltered again in their favorite pair

of worn out slippers.

Shuffle,shuffle into the kitchen.

I pour the coffee into the waiting mug.

A few more steps

and I am at the stereo.

Switching on a favorite tape ,

dancing in the morning.

I feel the hot coffee warming my blood

in the absence of a lover's embrace.

Hearing that song,

I think about you.

Smiling as I picture

your naked torso

dancing with me

in the light of dawn.

If I close my eyes I can almost feel

your breath upon my shoulders.

Child

Child, as I hold you in my embrace

I feel your breath upon my face.

This is a moment we both may share.

A memory time cannot erase.

As you lie sleeping ,I feel frozen in space.

In this moment's peace

this is our place.

Dark Beauty

Mother of the night

kisses the little stars in welcome.

Planetary bodies adore her .

Clinging to her body

warmly they adorn her.

Always she encompasses them

The warmth of her exuding comfort eternal.

The jealous shadows hide

from her dark beauty.

Empty Words

Scared, I watch the little girl walking alone,

without support in a very adult world.

She is singing a sad song to comfort herself .

Empty words.

Her heart is deep ,a polluted pool.

Where there should be happiness

instead I see shadows.

The Cost

Fly away little girl,

don't you fall into his arms.

You are so strong

why can't you just let it be?

He offers his arm

at such a cost.

Where will you be

after the party is over?

My Father's Daughter

I am my father's daughter

from the day that I was born.

When my mother left him,

how my life was torn.

I wanted to be like him

and so I learned to write.

Then as I grew older

I learned how to survive

and how to fight.

I am my father's daughter

I don't know right from wrong.

I don't know how to tell him

so I wrote it in this song.

Two Voices Meeting

Somewhere in time

I heard your call.

In darkness I answered

alone no more.

Two voices meeting ,

overlapping in harmony.

The stage of life is open ,

the players await their cues.

Break Free

 

Be my stranger

Be my song

Be my lover,

not for too long.

Be my actor

I am the stage

Give me your anger

Show me your rage

There was something inside

There was something inside of me

When you spoke

it all broke free

Be my stranger

Be my song

Be my lover

not for too long

Be my actor

I am the stage

If only for a moment

we could break free.

The Queen Of Hearts

The queen  of hearts has lost her crown

I watched the beggar pull her down

from her throne

of gold and nails.

No longer hearts will be impaled.

The queen of hearts has gone away.

Offer yourself another day.

She has no purpose for your feet

Your youth,

your blood

she may find sweet.

The queen  of hearts has gone away

Offer yourself another day.

She has no purpose for your heart.

The hands  of the beggar

are  here to stay.

Nothingness

I do not feel this.

I do not feel your eyes upon me.

As your hands go walking

I do not feel this.

I am empty.

When you kiss me

my mouth, the automaton

kisses you back with no sympathy.

I have no answers

I have no answers

for your questioning eyes.

My eyes, reflecting yours

are empty pools

unfathomable and deep.

Like blackest water

they embrace you

within the nothing I have become.

I do not feel this.

I do not feel your eyes upon me.

As your body moves in closer

I do not feel this

I am empty.

The Mirror Box

I wasn't supposed to open it

The latch was silver,and shiny.

Glistening with that beckoning smile.

The lock was open, waiting

My footsteps echoing across the tile floor

I tried to resist

Stopping only for a moment

to stare in silence.

Oh the beauty!

Almost as if we were destined to meet.

I placed trembling fingers

upon the wooden box

Warm with sunlight

stumbling and unaware.

What careful hands had placed this here

So  very long ago?

I paused before opening

Why is it unlocked?

Too late

I open it

Momentarily blinded

My own reflection stares back at me.

Diamond of Destiny

The night is my canvas.

My body stretches to the stars.

A magnificent paint brush .

Dancing with the shadows,

weaving webs of beauty and mystery.

I saw you in the moonlight.

Your hat had fallen over your eyes

yet still I saw you

crying out to destiny.

“Take this cup of darkness from me”

I chose the impermanence of the moment.

The cup you hold is madness,

and the ecstasy of indifference

is calling me away now

from your corner in darkness

Shadows no longer hide you

Diamond of Destiny.

The Poetry Of Nothing

I write the poetry of nothing

I see everything in you

You see your life as meaningless

I see everything you do

You need me to need you

You were nothing before we met

You need me to need you

I want you to forget

If you were anything before me

then what you have become

is everything within me

and nothing when I am done.

Birth

Complete

A burning mass of electricity.

This soul reborn,

This spirit rebuilt,

awaking into glorious pain.

Reaching out to feel

all that life entails.

Gone long enough to not forget

the complexity of emotions

the extension of endless nerve endings

connecting lines of magnetic eyes

Like branches of an enormous tree

encompassed in such a tiny cellular mass.

Not to forget, only to remember

What glorious pain,

what magnificent bliss.

In sight and sound

the movement begins again.

Mother Lover's Kiss

I'll  tell you a story

of how love lies bleeding.

The rusty razor's edge

is a faithless lover's kiss.

How I long to kiss

those ruby lips

so cold now.

Too late

to embrace in bliss

what can only be desired.

Love too soon surrounded

within the icy womb of our Mother Lover.

The Mirror Symphony

The night,my canvas

loves this tattered soul.

I paint her with these aching hands

Baring this heart,

so full of holes.

I love to dance in darkness,

my body moving to the mirror symphony.

The sound of breaking glass surrounding me

I reach out to my lover,

the night.

These broken wings no longer carry me.

Change

I tear the darkness apart.

I shred it with my art.

I am touching you

like never before.

I am touching you

You can't ignore

the feelings inside

you have hidden in fear

Those feelings can change.

Erasing all the years

When I am touching you

like never before

I am touching you

you cant ignore

the feelings inside

you have hidden in fear.

Those feelings can change

now that I am near.

As I tear apart the darkness

shredding it with my art

Two steps closer to  heaven

watch the shadows fall apart.

I am touching you like never before

I am touching you

you can't ignore those feelings

You cant ignore

Those feelings

can change.

The Blame Game

You look at me

like you are looking at the stars.

Dazed in your confusion

you've forgotten

who you are.

I don't know how to tell you

Don't know how to explain

This is my life

This is not a game.

Don't blame me for your pain.

Don't blame me for your fear.

Don't blame me for your suffering

Your mind is too unclear.

I won't promise you stability

I won't promise you a home

I won't promise you forgiveness.

Those things are better left alone.

I am everything and nothing

A mirror

A song

Unknown.

What it is I give you

Is only what you already know.

And what you had forgotten

or thought you had outgrown.

You look at me

like you are looking at the stars

Dazed in your confusion

You've forgotten who you are.

I don't know how to tell you.

Don't know how to explain.

This is my life

and I am not to blame.

This is my life,

and not a game.

This is my life.

Don't blame me.

Don't blame me.

Don't blame me.

Another Way

He knows

She knows

They can't seem to make it work.

They fit together

like sand and glue.

Smoothing rough edges

Starting over again.

Searching for something new.

He says

She says

Lets be friends.

He knows

She knows

There is no end.

He knows

She knows

They will find another way.

She says

He says

Maybe some other day.

Some other time,some other place

They will find another way.

Pencil

I try to write

the pencil is a strange companion.

Sometimes she writes me love songs.

Sometimes she brings me shadows.

Always she leaves me feeling curious.

Is it me writing with the pencil?

Or is the pencil writing with me?

Finished

Outside the day is beautiful.

It doesn't make my heart beat faster.

It doesn't make me think of you.

If I go out walking

It won't change these feelings.

Now that we are finished.

Now that we are through.

The Last Embrace

If only I could erase

these precious memories

His velvet lips.

His gentle touch.

Our warm embrace.

It matters little

that it was I

who sealed our fate.

Gone are those moments.

Each day passes

an eternity.

My salt tears fall

unheeded

upon hard ground.

Tragic Heart

I woke up today

the sound of your voice

still ringing in my ears.

How I loved you,and all that we did.

Sometimes you could make me feel

just like a kid.

I know I hurt you

I know I lied

Deep inside,

you know I tried.

I am fragmented

you were oh so good to me.

I am fragmented

You said you saw inside me.

I woke up today

I wish I hadn't.

I woke up today

my heart ,so very tragic.

How I loved you and all that we did.

You could make me feel just like a kid.

I know I hurt you

I know I lied

Deep inside, you know I tried.

I am fragmented

You were oh so good to me

I am fragmented

you said you saw inside me.

I woke up today

wishing I hadn't .

I woke up today

my heart so very tragic.

Ashes

Memories fall

like so many ashes

scattered in the wind.

I burn away the sadness

always it returns again

a constant reminder

of what we once knew.

The more I look I wonder

Did I ever really know you?